I can’t stand when I feel determined to live in the NOW, and that sort of kills whatever plans I have for the future. Best example: University studies.

I started studying, because I felt I had to do something with my life. So far it’s been great, but as every year passes by, it takes me a lot a hard work to climb up to the next step, and then the next step, that will someday lead me to an engineering degree.

So, sometimes, instead of studying, I spend my time enjoying the moment. I do things I like, things I can’t do when I’m busy. And that makes me really happy. But on the other hand, there’s my “academic responsibilities” which include studying, and passing the tests to go ahead to another level. And eventually achieving a good professional life.

It’s like New Year’s resolutions. You write a list hoping to have all of the items striked out by the end of the year. Many people get there, I usually don’t.

I have to admit, I’m not a big planner. I like to live day to day, making decisions as I go, and sometimes that can play against me. Like today, when I learned I have an exam in two weeks. I was surprised and I started studying at once.

And that drives me to write this post. When I feel that my life is a constant struggle between what I want today, and what I want for the future. How can one balance those two, and at the same time enjoy a life full of satisfaction?

Being satisfied with what you do is an alternative. I know. But how can I find that, in what I do everyday, without a doubt?

I feel I took a long time off blogging. It seems that the job switch affected my state of mind more than I thought it would. Actually a group of facts happening in a very short period of time had this effect on me.

I’m not a daily-poster, so I can’t say I’ve been absent long, but lately I’ve been feeling in no mood for writing. I want to write about interesting things, posts that leave you thinking, but nothing comes up to inspire me.

Anyway, to sum up I decided not to give up on Math, which will require most of my time to catch up with, so these last two months of college will be very hard. I’ll be busy and even now, I’m not able to find the inspiration, or the time to be inspired by anything…

What I know, is that I had to write something here, something to say: “Hey, I’m still here! Silent, but here.” Just a few words to express my affection for this little piece of space I call my own.

I’ll be back in no time. Cheers!